Friday
I don’t understand why the holidays are so short.
I know the whole “Yes! Two weeks off!” sounds good, but to me it doesn’t. I’m trying to get my life back together and there are not enough hours in a day that allow me to do so.
Before I continue, I just want to clarify that yes, sometimes I’m a nerd.
I really wanted to get all my homework done in the first week so I could relax on the second week. Among that, I wanted to do a million other things. I wanted to clean my room, read at least 5 novels and exercise.
Instead, I blew most of my money at DFO, got a new TV and hung up Twilight posters.
What’s wrong with me?!
Now it’s the end of the first week and I’ve just touched my pile of statistics worksheets for maths.
Self-discipline is d-i-f-f-i-c-u-l-t. Ah well, I WILL get there someday.
For now, I will continue to sit back, chillax and watch Backstreet Boys music videos on my brilliant new tv.
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Consistence
Okay so you’re probably thinking, “This girl’s blog entries are a month apart. What’s with that?”.
I know my updates aren’t very regular, and this is the perfect opportunity to explain why.
There are millions of things I want to accomplish, but since a day is too short, I end up doing nothing.
But that is LAZINESS. I must start my life over. I must progress! I must DISCIPLINE myself!
I can do it! We can all do it! We can do anything we want with what we have whenever we want!
As long as we put our minds to it, we can.
Just wanted to share a bit of positivity to the day.
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Friendships
I don’t understand certain people. Sometimes you click with them and sometimes you just don’t. Why can’t we all understand and love each other for who and what we are?
It puzzles me more each day – why some friends last for minutes, some for days, some for months and only very few who last for years?
In general, friends and friendships are downright confusing.
Sometimes they ditch you and you have no idea what you did to them. Sometimes you confide in them but they block everything you say because they don’t care. Sometimes they boost you up, but bring you back down within the next few hours. Sometimes they make you want to befriend them, but in the end it turns out that they were using you for some reason or other. Sometimes they make you feel sorry for them, then they belittle you in the coming week.
Which is precisely why I’ve learned that getting super close to someone is not always a good thing. You get attached. You get annoyed. You ask yourself how it all began. Why now? Why me?
Well, I’ve accepted that that’s LIFE. And I’m not going to fight to keep friendships alive anymore, if they’re meant to die, they will.
Friends will come and go, but I’ll always have my family and my faith.
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15
Life never fails to confuse me. This morning for example, my mother asked me why I put a bowl of hot food on top of the sandwich maker. Why did I put a bowl of hot food on top of the sandwich maker? Why didn’t I make room on the kitchen bench for the bowl? Well, I don’t know why I didn’t! The sandwich maker was just there – it was…more…uhh…convenient, okay (and probably not the safest idea)?
But this isn’t the only question. Why is it so hard to be a teenager? Why is it that we constantly make mistakes and do things wrong? This I will never know.
Fifteen is a difficult age. You’re too old for kid stuff but too young for adult stuff. For some reason, everyone just doesn’t get you. They think you’re being difficult and annoying when you’re just being normal.
Like when you say you don’t want to do something your parents ask you to do and then you feel bad so you say you’ll do it and then they’re all like, “Don’t worry, forget it, don’t do it” and you want to pull your hair out. I mean, what do they want from you? Once you realize you’re being stubborn you try and change yourself and then they just want you to go back to being stubborn. I’m always in the wrong place at the wrong time, doing the wrong thing. Ugh.
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Introduction
The title of this blog may cause you to jump to the conclusion that this is another screaming-fangirl-teeny-bopper blog. Even though the widely successful ‘Twilight’ franchise is part of why I chose the title, there is also another meaning to what used to be a word that no one screamed out loud at in response to it being mentioned – twilight [twahy-lahyt; noun]: the diffused light from the sky when the sun is below the horizon but its rays are refracted by the atmosphere of the earth.
The earth can be much more appreciated if we carefully look at everything that happens in 12 hours. Instead of waking up to the day, pulling the covers over our face and complaining that it is “painfully bright”, we should think of it as dawn, preparing for us a day that should not be wasted by sleeping in. When it is almost nighttime, instead of stressing that we didn’t finish something, we should turn to twilight and remember that it is time to rest, and that we can always finish our work the next day.
I know it sounds cheesy, but seriously – consider it.
It is not always easy to be positive – especially in today’s world – but it is harder if you don’t try.
Self-motivation is actually quite hard and why so?
Exhibit A – Today’s distractions. If I hadn’t signed up to Twitter, I’d probably have a clean room.
Exhibit B – No sleep. Sleeping is essential if you want to stay awake for most of the day. To this moment I am still trying to motivate myself to get off this computer.
I guess it is all about self-discipline, talking to yourself (not out loud I hope), setting reminders everywhere (I’ve run out of Post-It Notes) and clearing your mind once in a while.
I’m not going to give up on self-discipline. I will get off this thing in approximately two words.
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